I heard that phrase again yesterday, “…lost in the woods.” Reposting from December. I think it is worth repeating. Happy Saint Patrick’s Day all.
“The love of God and his fear grew in me more and more, as did the faith, and my soul was rosed, so that, in a single day, I have said as many as a hundred prayers and in the night, nearly the same. I prayed in the woods and on the mountain, even before dawn. I felt no hurt from the snow or ice or rain.”
“Getting lost in the woods” is a phrase often associated with dark or troubled times in life.
If you are lost in the woods, take a moment. Take a deep long breath. Then look around you. The trees that surround you are not your enemy or your obstacle.
Look close and you will see, God has put those trees around you. They are there to protect you, to give you sustainability. They help form and define your path. Those trees are life giving and life saving. They offer you love and joy. Those trees are your friends and family, and safe spaces.
If you ever feel lost in the woods, take a breath, look around and know, you are not alone! Trust me, I’m an Oak…
Sometimes you get knocked down. No matter what you do, things beyond your control can take you down. Last weekend I was knocked down with a medical issue that had me in the hospital for 3 days. I am ok, but have. Had a lingering effect that has limited my physical activity and even kept me from driving some.
Depression doesn’t reveal itself in sorrow. It would not reveal itself at low times. Why would it need to. I was already right where it wanted me to be. No, it was in the halcyonic moments that depression found me. Even now, now that I am aware of it, now that I can control it, it still attempts to damage my calm.
A great way to control depression is to keep moving. That nasty shadow then has to chase you. Spending time in a hospital bed or even my own bed is tough. It means the shadow can catch up and start meddling again.
This is also tough because my health issues are affecting other people. It becomes harder and more stressful for Mindy. Plus at times when I can’t drive, it leaves us in a tough spot financially. It becomes difficult not to take things personally and feel like a burden. I know I am not a burden. But, the situation is still stressful.
I try not to ask for prayers for myself, with so many people out there who are struggling, so many people starving or living in war or terror. But, I sure could use some prayers. Really, not for me so much as for Mindy and the kids. I am working to overcome this recent setback and will hopefully be back to full health soon.
I firmly believe in prayer. I firmly believe God has my back. So, I am telling that shadow to shove it! This too will pass. I am back on the road tonight. I hope to have a productive evening and meet some wonderful people.
As I begin migrating my Facebook blog content to this new site, today marks the 1 year anniversary of my inaugural blog. Reposting here…
February 23, 2018
This is my inaugural blog post for StreetLights. This page was created to share stories from the road and amazing passengers I meet in my travels as an Uber/Lyft driver. I will also be blogging about depression and recovery, love and kindness, and as always, music! I hope to shine a light for anyone going through depression or dealing with a tough time in life. Street lights guide us and help us see hazards along our journey. We all need light and we all have the ability to create light for others.
With that said, I have chosen as my first official blog to tell you about a very good and kind man I met yesterday, and am now honored to call my new friend. His name is Marshall Foster. He is a professional photographer. Marshall arrived at Terminal D, DFW Airport yesterday and had requested a ride to North Dallas. He was returning from a photo shoot in Uganda, where he was contracted by a humanitarian organization to photo document some of the work being done. I have included with this post a few of Marshall’s photos, with his permission. Below you will also find contact information for his website and Instagram. I encourage you to explore his work. You will clearly see his talent and his connection to every person he photographs!
Marshall believes God has called him to be a photographer, and after I had a chance to check out some of his photographs, I understand why. He is an amazing photographer. Marshall believes his work is helping make a positive difference in humanitarian efforts in places like Uganda, South Africa, Zambia and several other countries struggling with famine or dealing with natural disasters or some type of health crisis. He is a humble and kind man doing extraordinary work.
the length of the trip gave us time to discuss a great many things including God, love, kindness, and even depression. during the conversation, he mentioned something he and his girlfriend Leila do every night before going to sleep. They each tell the other three things they are grateful for. Occasionally they include one “annoy” as Marshall called it. Hey, everyone has a frustrating day from time to time. I think that is a great habit to focus on gratitude as well as form a positive, real perspective on life before falling asleep. He stated it was a great way for both of them to spend a little time every day, even if it is on the phone and they are on different continents, to have a positive and meaningful conversation. What a great practice!
I explained to Marshall, I too have felt God’s call. The Lord has given me two clear directives. The first is to support, love and be present for my family. The second is to share my experiences and struggles, to shine a light on depression, and also focus on kindness. This includes sharing stories about people just like Marshall who wake up every day challenging themselves to be kind, be helpful, and to change the world!
I hope you will like the page. I encourage everyone to join a group I created in the page called The Kindness Club. I am inviting everyone join and become ACTIVE members by finding ways to share kindness, both as an individual and as a group. The Kindness Club will be a place where we can all participate in the discussion. Everyone can share their stories of kindness and we can unite in a common goal of creating joy for others. Can you imagine meeting up somewhere as a group with a plan to bring kindness and joy to many people. We could make someone’s day. Or, we could make several people’s days. Join now and share your ideas on how we can collectively share kindness
A friend and fellow music lyrics explorer recently reminded how powerful this song is. It has long been one of my favorites and I use it for reflection. Reflection is important when trying to figure out how to move forward. What I have learned is, reflection is nowhere near as important as living for today. If you don’t, you won’t be open to God’s plan for you and the true beauty in your life.
I have been blessed with four incredible children. Jake, Katie, Leia, and Ben. I hope I can instill that lesson into their lives and make sure they know one other little bit of wisdom:
When you are confused or in a dark place, music is a powerful beacon of light. God will help you through. And if you ever get lost, call your old man. I will bring you home.
Today is day 9 of recovery for me and today is a good day. Make it count!
Haven’t posted in awhile. Depression is hard. It actually presents 2 sets of sadness and pain. The first set comes with the fog that surrounds and swallows you up. The 2nd set comes if you are lucky enough to emerge from that fog. Then with new clarity you feel the pain and sadness of the damage left in your wake.
Be kind to all you see the holiday season. There are a great many people who desperately need it.
This post was originally written in December, 2018. I began sharing my journey through depression and recovery that month. many of my posts were not only to share but my story, but they served as a type of therapy for me.
Good morning on this Wednesday. I hope everyone had a great Christmas. Had a few Christmas miracles myself.
New lesson learned on this 22nd day of recovery from Depression. It’s easy to become focused on restoring yourself to a happier, more whole person you used to be. That is a false path.
The true path forward means leaving behind your old self. The true path forward means learning to live with who you are and finding contentment in the here and now. It means acknowledging those parts of you that echo sadness and finding ways to keep those echos from becoming the dominant forces in your head, knowing they will always be there. But just echos…
If you ever feel overwelmed with sadness and fatigue, you are not alone. There are people who can help you through the fog. I can. God can. Together we can keep moving toward the light until that overwelming, paralyzing force is just an echo.
May all of you have a great day and remember to be kind.